From my posts you can tell that I haven't always been happy. Sometimes I've felt sad, had something nagging at me, eating me away from the inside. Sometimes I struggle to keep up the pretences and break down. All these "sometimes" have cumulated, every single time crumbling that wall of defences that I put around our relationship. After that last straw, I was finally angry enough, dissatisfied enough at our stupid volatile relationship that I wanted to give up.

I don't know what brought me to say it. Or what fuelled my rage so greatly that I actually dared to ask for a break. I guess that jolted you to your senses as well, that all my temper and stubbornness is just not worth it. I wish those stupid rumours hadn't spread, because it couldn't have been further than the truth. Yes, 2 weeks is all it takes. To make or break this relationship. I've realised that you're so important, so hopefully at the end of block tests what awaits me is not heartbreak and sadness.